Everything is just easier. You fit in. Your credentials mean more. You understand the nuances. You know how to behave. Your old friends are here, and it's easier to make new ones. You know how to network. You know what to do.
I've lost many years of work, of fun with friends, of learning.
What did I get in return for those irrecoverable years?
France. England. Germany.
Was it enough?
I don't know.